spinning

I know I'm going to have a hard time going to sleep tonight.

I just got an update in my inbox from Susan's Martha's Vineyard Fiber Farm blog. Seriously, this might be the biggest-ever blog-land giveaway. You can go check it out, but the nuts and bolts are this: She's giving away a small starter flock of angora goats as well as a custom-built run-in shed, shipped to the winner.

And it's an essay contest.

And if you've been following my blog for any length of time, chances are you probably know that I grew up raising lambs. And I have a serious sweet spot for them. And of all the things that I want to add to the Thomas Run menagerie--lambs are number one, above and beyond, top of my list. (And for the record, they're at the top of the girls' list, too. Even above a pony. Do you know we often take the long way home, just to pass our favorite sheep farm?)

But these aren't sheep. They're goats. What do I know about goats? Even goats that look like sheep.

But a starter flock?! And a shed?! And Susan will even throw in some consulting to help get you started?!

And did you know there's a spinning wheel sitting up in my grandmother's bedroom?

And did you know that my one goal for this winter was to finally sit down with her and ask her to teach me how to spin? I missed that chance.

But there are still other ways to learn. I know.

But then, reality comes crashing in. And I remember that we still have no fencing.

And we still have no money for fencing.

And we still own that stupid house in Wisconsin that is sucking all the money out of our pockets.

And I think that maybe this just isn't my time.

But I'm still thinking.

Gosh, am I thinking....